
Don't get me wrong, I am in love with being pregnant...well at least the idea of it. You know, that 9 months of special motherly bliss and every day is a wonder and every moment brings you closer to cradling that sweet tiny baby in your arms- now that is an image I can get excited about.
In reality though, the beautiful and blissful dream of pregnancy ended for me that first morning that I woke up feeling as though I had been run over by a truck in a hurry and I started to hate even the idea of food. That was when it became more of a pregnancy marathon; a rush of emotion and excitement at the starting line melting into a need to focus on just getting through each minute until that incredible high that inevitably comes at the finish line with that brand new baby.
In the meantime, I can't escape making a mental log of all the things I miss about not being pregnant:
*The ability to open the fridge door without holding my breath to try to escape the battering of food smells that rushes out at me.
*Sleeping the whole night without being woken by my screaming bladder and urged into a 2 am stumble to the toilet.
*The joy of cooking....anything. Oh yes and the joy of eating...anything!
*Feeling like a 25 year old instead of a 55 year old each morning when I wake up. Thank you aches and pains.
*Was there once a time when I didn't feel queasy everyday? It seems like there must have been...but it feels so very distant now...
*The ability to wear all of my clothes, and to shop for new clothes knowing that I would be the same size tomorrow that I was today.
*Not wanting to scream and yell at about 80% of the population 80% of the time. Where have all the good moods gone?
*Not having to remember to take folic acid every morning. That reminds me...have I taken my folic acid today?
Just to balance this out I am working on a list of things that I absolutely love about being pregnant... so watch for that to come out in about 6 months time when I am no longer pregnant!
3 comments:
WHAATTTT? Are you saying your pregnant? And I didn't get an email???
CONGRATULATIONS!!! YAY!!! I guess I missed your last post that kind of spilled the beans! That is just fantastic... except of course for those things you are missing...
I love your creative use of words and storytelling! You will think of the good things, once you have the product of your labors (pun intended) in your arms. I am excited and happy for you and Chris and Arthur. May food become inviting and aches and pains a distant memory is my prayer for you.
Mom
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